Saturday, October 18, 2008

The thing about relationships

So it's been about a year and a couple months since I was in some sort of relationship, it was a long drawn out, dramatic ending but isn't that how the good ones end?

Needless to say, I'm starting to wounder if there is really a girl in Portland that will be able to hold my attention to for longer than 3 min. Not to say the girls here are no interesting, it's more to say that I've decided to hold out for that one girl who I'm just not gonna be able to stop wondering about.

The thing is however that after a year or so of not dating you start to get anxious, like you meet a girl you remotely find interesting and next thing you know your showering them with texts or random things, then you get that anxious oh man what if she dosnt text you back feeling and then realize well she does have a life, so I can't hold it against her if I don't get texted back, right?

That being said, my tactic (even however bad I want to) is to not be all the way available (I dont mean emotionally) I mean just don't seem desperate. However that probably works like 20% of the time, here is the back lash kids.

One: You give a girl space, and she thinks you aren't interested
Two: You try and hang out as much as you can, they get spazzed and don't want you around them
Three: They make you feel awesome, so you get stoked, then realize oh shit she's like that with a lot of other guys (I'm probably here from the girl perspective haha so I can't complain about number 3)

It all probably works like this from either genders perspective, but I keep feeling that all the girls I would honestly want to date live entirely too far, either on the other side of the country, or out of the country all together. Perhaps it's some sort of pathological thing, knowing they can't just burst in on me might make them more alluring when in all reality there are perfect candidates right here in my backyard.

The major thing I get from just about every female or guy is "Wow you are friends with a lot of girls!" or "Look at all the girls your talking too". Which is fine, I'm not dumb or sneeky, I do own my myspace so I can see there are a lot of females there. The way it's said to me though is in this context of "oh you must totally be banging all of them" which is far from true. If i was, I'd probably be on Maruy right now talken about some baby daddy!

bah, its just so damn frustrating! I know what I can offer and make it available, I also know what I want from another person, so wheres the mix up in that formula? I do however have tons of pet peeves, like I hate it when people text me "how are you". Please, that's not a text message question, that's something you ask in a phone conversation, but to be honest you actually could care less how I am, you just find it polite to ask.

Anywho, here are some pics from earlier this week at that Shadow Scene event!






If you want to see more photos then go to ShadowScene.com! Hit the fiesta link and then scroll down to the pics from Portland, OR.

In other news, I think its important to make sure you go vote since the election is a mere few weeks away! I also suggest you watch this film:




I'm not super sure what else to say! haha well anyways, I am going to make dinner and then I dunno stay in, go out?, hunt a panda? Fuck, This Sat is pretty lame haha

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh Seb, how old are you now and you're complaining about the dating game? You've still a few years to find that special lady, be it in Japan or in Oregon. I understand where you're going with your statements. Girls are weird, if one wants love and respect then why wouldn't she be smitten over your affection? But instead, it is like what you have written; she instead gasps for space then cries for your attention all at once.
Dearest, you are a unique, polished, and intelligent young man. It's only time until the perfect girl for you comes along.

Anonymous said...

who are you holding out for?